May 17, 2016
I had five children in my first marriage. The order was
girl, girl, boy, girl, and girl. My then-husband was so disappointed when I
told him our first was a girl. He was on the road to work (about two hours away)
when I went to the hospital. This was before cell phones, so I was unable to
get ahold of him so he could be there. When he finally called me, our daughter
had been born, and his first words to me were, “Is it a boy?” I replied, “No,
but she’s so beautiful!” After our second daughter was born, I think we both
assumed we would be the parents of girls. Then our son was born, and we kept
saying to one another, “We have a boy!” I can’t say what exactly he meant when
he said it, but I know that I was just delighted to try my hand at raising a
son and had been resigned that the Lord didn’t have that on the schedule for
me.
That boy was born 28 years ago. His sisters are 34, 31, 25
and 22, three of whom are married. There was something completely different
about him even when he was a baby. He was drawn to different kinds of
activities than those that drew the attention of my girls. Some of the girls
liked “girly” things, some were less interested. Our son was about 300% boy, as
I described him. He was loud, rowdy, and such a handful. As he became older, I
realized that there was really nothing that I was teaching him about what to
like and dislike. He has ADHD, and it was particularly challenging in his case.
I later had another boy and another girl with my current
husband. They, too, are very different. Neither is “all boy” or “all girl,” but
they have strong tendencies that give a nod to their respective genders. The
things that keep their attention and which fill their time sometimes blend, but
mostly they are distinct individuals.
When I think of myself as a little girl, I remember being
raised in a family where gender roles were more rigidly defined, but I was
secretly (still am!) glad to be a girl because I didn’t want to have the
responsibilities the boys had and would have as they grew older. I didn’t
really understand what I was feeling. I knew I was a girl, and I was glad to be
a girl. It never occurred to me that I could or should be a boy. That seems to
me like my cats feeling like they should really have been born dogs and living
a dog’s life. To be honest, though, most of us would love to live a dog’s life
now and then.
Speaking of dogs, we currently have two dogs. Harley is a
young male yellow Lab/Collie mix; Shadow is a 10-year-old female Siberian
Husky. We rescued Harley when he was nine months old. He had been in an abusive
situation. One month later we adopted Shadow from our neighbor who had to move
to an apartment. Not only did Shadow basically teach Harley how to be a dog, we
have had our own in-home gender study going on with the two dogs.
Harley is rough and tumble and completely oblivious to the
needs of and affection for Shadow. Shadow, to Harley, is his buddy. They like
to play, but it’s mostly Harley running circles around Shadow while she
pretends she can’t take him with one fell swoop. She is very much like a mother
even though she has never had any puppies. Our family took in a new mother
kitty and her four tiny kittens last year. Harley was very curious about them,
and he has always been gentle. Shadow surprised us because she was so gentle
and seemed to treat the kittens the way their mother did. She was patient with
them and gave them loving licks when they would come near her. We still have
three of the kittens, who are a year old now. When Shadow walks by them, she
will often reach out and give them a love-lick. Harley’s form of affection
seems to be putting the entire head of a cat in his mouth (not in a violent way
but a playful one).
In our household my husband and I share the task of
nurturing our children. I am usually more gentle in my approach, but he has the
wisdom to see things I miss. I have a full-time job, but he has many jobs and
spends an awful lot of time trying to keep the plates spinning. He clearly
takes his role as the head of the home very seriously. I, on the other hand, am
secretly glad that I don’t have to be the sole decision maker for the family!
We are all very, very grateful that, while I do the “traditional” mom job of
all the family laundry, he does all of the cooking. His approach to cooking is
a beautiful thing, one which my tummy greatly appreciates!
I am me. I am a product of my upbringing but mostly who I am
chemically, physically, emotionally, and mentally. I have a sense that my
spirit existed before I was born. I had the sense before I joined the Church.
That same sense tells me that when I leave this earth, my spirit will still be
me because my spirit is who I am. I like to think of my body as a handy
carrying case.
The many scriptural accounts of the creation tell us that
God created us as male and female. I have to wonder, if He created us that way,
wouldn’t it make sense that he had more in his plan for each gender rather than
just the physical creation of other males and females?
While the history of mankind (even the fact that we
emphasize the “man” portion of the word as if it means just male and not human)
is filled with mischaracterization of God’s design for male and female, I feel
that, like many other issues that have been skewed one way or the other, we are
going past the mark and trying to right a wrong by inserting another wrong that
our society is defining as a “right.” Male lawyers and female lawyers might
understand the law equally well, but each brings a different leaning to their
interpretation, and that is what helps make it more well rounded.
We are trying to teach the young girls in our society that
they are capable and beautiful and “enough.” At the same time, our media tends
to send the message that boys are the root cause of our society’s ills,
especially as they grow to be men. I believe that in order to be equal, we need
to be treated as though each gender is capable of different things that are all
needed to keep the world going.
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