I taught Sunday School to the youth in our ward in Virginia for
five years. As any teacher will tell you, I am sure I learned far more by
studying the scriptures in preparation than did any of the students in my
classes. My first year and my last year as a teacher we studied the Book of
Mormon. Unlike our Primary kids, I had not learned about the Book of Mormon as
I was growing up, so as a 15-year-old, who thought I knew everything, a whole
new world of people and their experiences opened up for me. Even after many
years in the Church, it wasn’t until those years teaching that I truly became
acquainted with those people. Abinadi is one of my favorite prophets in the
Book of Mormon. I hope that after his death he was made aware of Alma and his
efforts to teach all he had learned from Abinadi. Talk about a successful
missionary!
In secret, as Alma was gathering people who, probably like he,
remembered and yearned to return to the things taught by Abinadi, these are the
words he spoke:
Mosiah 18:8 … now, as ye are desirous to come into the fold
of God, and to be called his people, and are willing to bear one another’s
burdens, that they may be light;
9 Yea,
and are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that
stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in
all things, and in all places that ye may be in, even until death, that ye may
be redeemed of God, and be numbered with those of the first resurrection, that
ye may have eternal life—
10 Now
I say unto you, if this be the desire of your hearts, what have you against
being baptized in the name of the Lord, as a witness before him that ye have
entered into a covenant with him, that ye will serve him and keep his
commandments, that he may pour out his Spirit more abundantly upon you?
Later in the Book of Mormon, Ammon, Alma the Younger’s missionary
companion, converts many Lamanites to the Church of Christ. They were so
thoroughly converted that they were all too aware of their sins, which were
many and were grievous. Because of this, they willingly and gratefully made a
covenant with their Father in Heaven, who had forgiven them of those sins, that
they would NEVER commit those sins again. And they were true to their word,
feeling that suffering the pain of death was far better than ever breaking that
covenant. They were the parents of the 2,000 stripling warriors. When things
became perilous years later, these people were still reluctant but, fearing for
the safety of their loved ones, agreed to take up arms once again to protect them.
Helaman, the son of Alma, talked them out of it, because he and his
contemporaries knew how important our covenants with our Father in Heaven are.
I could go on. Book of Mormon stories are filled with heart stopping moments
and heart swelling testimony.
What does it mean for US to take upon ourselves the name of Jesus
Christ? In the April 1986 Ensign John S.
Tanner, who is currently serving in the General Sunday School Presidency of the
Church (and who was an English professor at BYU, so that makes him doubly my
hero), wrote an article entitled:
“Reflections on the Sacrament Prayers.” He said:
“We who have taken upon ourselves the name of Christ, first at
baptism and then weekly with the sacrament, may also be worthy to be embraced
by the Lord. But first we will have to make an accounting of what we have done
with his name, the only name under heaven through which salvation comes.
“We honor this name by keeping his commandments. But which
commandments? At first, I think of the questions asked of me during a temple
recommend interview. But soon I get to the even more searching great
commandments: Am I truly loving man and God with all my heart and strength? ‘If
a man love me,’ Jesus said, ‘he will keep my words.’ I believe this to be as
much a statement of simple fact as it is an injunction. Those who love the Lord
do keep his commandments.
“Yet no matter how inspiring our Sabbath, come Monday morning, the
cares of the world quickly press upon us. I suppose, then, it is precisely
because the Lord understands our human tendency to forget that he invites us to
partake of the sacrament weekly. The commandment is adjusted, as is the Word of Wisdom, to the capacity of the weak.”
One of the greatest blessings from Heavenly Father is agency.
Because of agency, we are able to make the free choice to give Heavenly Father
the one thing that is truly ours to give:
Obedience. Because we are weak and sin, we also have the blessing of
repentance, which is a direct result of the Atonement. Without the Savior’s
Atonement, repentance would be a wasted effort. Also, through repentance we
learn some of our most important lessons. Like anyone, I have regrets, mostly
regarding my own sins and errors. And I have spent a lot of time daydreaming
about what life would be like had I not made that mistake or this; how much
happier would I be? But then I think, would I like the person I have become had
I not stumbled and then struggled through the repentance process? As I prepared
to graduate high school a couple of years ago, I was, unbeknownst to myself,
judgmental. I had goals and expectations for my life. And then that life
happened, and I painfully learned how hard it really is. I believe I have spent
the intervening years repenting for my frame of mind in those early years and
striving to look at others as the divine beings we all are.
My family knows how much I dislike the pairing of the word
“agency” with the word “free,” because there really is no such thing as free
agency. Now, there is agency that allows us the freedom to choose for
ourselves, but we are NOT free of the consequences of those choices, good or
bad. And then there’s the fact that sometimes we suffer the consequences, good
or bad, of OTHER people’s choices.
Sometimes it is a struggle not to ask “why me?” “How long do I
have to be punished for my sins?” But stepping back a little, I recognize that
it is not the Lord “punishing” me. In some cases I still feel the consequences
of my actions, and in other cases, I recognize that the consequences I feel are
those resulting from someone else’s choice to judge ME. And one lesson I am
struggling to learn is that I can turn to the Lord for help to get through
those difficult times.
I believe the Gospel of Jesus Christ is true. I believe He lived
and yet lives. I believe we all will be resurrected as a consequence of the
Atonement. But let us not just believe IN Christ. Let us also BELIEVE Christ.
His Atonement opened for us the opportunity to repent. Let us believe that for
ourselves and, just as importantly, for others. That is an essential part of
repentance. How can we truly repent of our sins if we are unwilling to forgive
first ourselves and then others?
These are some of the thoughts I have as I partake of the
sacrament each Sunday. And partaking of the sacrament each Sunday humbles me as
I renew my conviction to keep my promises to our Heavenly Father. What are
those promises? That I will take upon myself the name of Jesus Christ and
always remember Him, and keep His commandments. We have been commanded to take
the sacrament often so that these things do not become items on an imaginary
to-do list but to keep them in the forefront of our minds because they can and
should be the spiritual GPS we rely on to make our way through this life.
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